it has been a while

i know, right?

i was so lazy to do anything this semester even though i have only 2 classes...not working anymore now...

i just slack all my time away!

=DDD

it's just so senior! right?!

although there's lots of other craps happening i'm actually loving this semester a lot!

so yea i've decided to go home...

and i've this horrible/unpleasant/sucky mixed feelings in me

i'm really excited to go home to see my grandmother, my sister and of course my little one...!!! :)

actually i think i'm excited to see all the people whom i have not seen them for YEARSSS

BUT i have this reluctant-to-leave/heavy hearted feelings too

i felt like the friends in college are those who grow up with you into the working world...

that's the time you start to learn how to appreciate/value things around you, unlike the primary/high school period...

THAT'S THE THING I WILL MISS MOST...

the college life and the friends...

the parties...the drinking sessions...the movies...hang out sessions... etc...

and i dont want to leave these awesome stuff!

i guess...

i had my share...

so yea...main point here is that...

I'M GOING HOME (for good but temporary)...!!!

=DDD

actually

my dad still checks on my blog!!! hahaha

love dad...

what makes me love him more is the way he replies me in my emails

email subject: fly/drive/walk/swim to Lincoln from LA :p

dad's reply: yes will do that fly/drive/walk/swim but not crawl

my love... :)

real posts soon...i promise...

seriously

michelle lam...

what is your next step?

it's already february...may 7th is just 3 months away...

had a good lecture yesterday that made me realized that i really do not have time to relax anymore...

michelle lam...

be motivated and finish up the freaking paper!

and plan for the next step...

=/

i need motivation...i'm so disappointed again with the freaking GELS! i need the freaking bands! i need to complete the freaking paper!

science...

is awesome yet annoying

it will not work if it doesnt have the right composition...

i am so unsure bout the future after may 7th...i'm so DEAD...!

hahaha

for one whose parents were so worried that she cant cook for herself...

she might die of hunger if she doesnt go out to eat...

NOW

she's sharing her recipes and teaching others how to cook...

i'm so proud of myself now! :p

okay, i'm not pro but at least i can cook hokkien mee?

tomyam beehoon?

pork chop?

bake tonnes of cakes?

etc...

=DDD

it's coming to an end

undergrad is ending

as well as my work :(

i remember the first day i went up to the professor asking if he accepts any undergraduates in the lab

he happily said yes and introduced me to the people there, christophe and andre (he left not long after i joined)...

didnt know what to expect but took me quite a while to get the hang of it and do things more efficiently...

christophe, my small boss or also my supervisor, had spent so much time and effort to train/guide me...for what i achieve now at work (co-authored his paper and preparing for the upcoming paper as first author), if it wasn't because of him, i wouldn't have achieve what i have today...

out of the workplace, he's my best friend...i couldn't ask anymore than this...he cooked for us, made sure i study well enough for exams, cared for us, partied with us, took good care of us...he's like a nanny to us...

soon...

he will be going somewhere else for good...i have mixed feelings; proud of him as he will soon be done with his phd, sad that i will not see him again anytime soon...

seriously, i wish he could attend the commencement...i wish i could share the proudest moment with him (of course, after my family)...if it wasn't because of all his guidance these two years, i guess i'm still an undergrad in the lab washing tubes...

will you stay till at least may 7th noon? =/

i will miss you buddy! =)

i should be

reading up the crystallography paper which is due tomorrow at 930am!

write up my european version of resume

looking for jobs

apply for thousands of job openings

upload more photos of lisbon

and the list continues

but

i'm here lying on the bed, under the most comfortable and warmest comforter on earth, browsing through some old pics from friends

and they reminded me of how much fun we had at the tennis courts/trips...

though i didnt join the penang team to as many tournaments as most of them did but it was certainly good time...

sitting under the scorching sun cheering for our team mates, travelling round malaysia for tournaments, staying in crappy and sometimes good hotels...

reminisced the first ever tournament i participated (msspp 2000 u-12 girls in crc), playing against the best player at that time who was 2 years younger than me and kicked my ass...

haha...good times...

i'm wondering where else in penang did i not play...probably had played in all the courts in penang

now that most of us have changed...i guess not many of us are still playing tennis as much...

how much i miss tennis

*sigh*

back in action...

it has been a while since i scribble some words here... =)

2010 really flew by so quickly that i didnt realize it was over 14 days ago...

2010 started off pretty rough, almost exactly a year ago i fell out of love, then had some friendship problems and etc...however all these bits and pieces had made me realize how to deal with people better...i personally think that i've grown up even more mature than before, perhaps a 24/25 year old adult...perhaps, the people i hung out with since April were mostly above 25 year old, i tend to think like one of them...no, i'm not complaining. however, i love them even more because they are at least 4/5 years more experience than me. even though i'm just a listener, i try to digest their experiences and advices...

i always believe in: if you are out of that comfort zone, you're growing up...or when you reminisce and laugh at yourself, that's when you've grown up

things got better since the Redox Biology Retreat in April...everybody from the lab were much more closer to each other...and spent even more time with each other throughout summer holidays...

2010 ended with a blast with a paper i co-authored with christophe...that was my biggest achievement in life ever even though i'm not sure if that will help me in my next step of life...

beside the rough beginning, i think i did not waste any bit of my 21 year old moment! i enjoyed myself to the fullest...I TRAVELLED SO MUCH that i couldnt believe myself...the states i've been to only during summer:

- chicago, illinois

- west lafayette, indiana

- des moines, iowa

- colorado

- utah

- arizona

and best of all to portugal that has been a great experience and eye opener...i really fell in love with the quality of life there...i love how things work in europe or at least i could only say portugal since i've only been to portugal most of my 3 weeks, 2 hours in spain for a coffee...

after spending 2 winters in lincoln, didnt really celebrated christmas, i finally managed to spend christmas with friends' families...and having a bunch of new friends to end the year and welcome a new year was definitely awesome!

and now i miss all of them in portugal :( for one thing i missed most is the weather...more reasons for me to hate lincoln and to get the crap out of here ASAP!

so 2011 has been great so far despite having only 6 credit hours of classes (which suck a lot, cz i'm f*cking BOREDDDDD) 20 hours max of work in the lab...3 hours of french class every week because i'm too bored and i need to do something...

one thing i've learnt and will try to keep it up for this 2011 is to keep on improving myself by reading more...i felt that we, most malaysians really are like the little frog in the well...the amount of news we care about or the amount of books we read are just almost invisible...at least for me, i think i really have a lot to catch up with what's going on in this world...for one thing i hate bout malaysian newspapers is the news they published! it's either WHO DIED TODAY (robbed and murdered/raped and murdered/heart attack/etc) or boring malaysian politicians arguing for nothing...OR the world news they covered is like nothing is happening in the world...

wishing everybody a good 2011... =)