Life…

young children are protected safely under their parents’ wide-spread wings…everything they do are all well arranged by their parents, they seldom meet up with any other problems other than school work load…friends made are normally from the same school or even same class…knowing each other very well, as well as their family background…they have not yet to step into the real life in this world, when things are really not as simple as they could ever think…

now, this is the time I’m into this stage whereby I’m meeting different people from different backgrounds with different attitude and character…everything seems to be very complicated…I used to be like any other young children who wants everything to follow the way I want…yes, I admit I’m pampered and I’m a spoiled brat…anything that does not go the way I want it to be, it just simply gets on my nerves and there goes I lose my temper…

how immature I could be…until yesterday, this attitude of mine has never change…however, after talking out my problems to my best listener, she tried very hard to persuade me and she has changed my thoughts…she advised me to look things in different perspective, to learn to be patient, cool and be composure at all times…rushing to solve problems will not do any good to anyone…in fact, it will add more problems to the problems unsolved…this has been happening to me all this while, ended up I lost my patience and temper, eventually lose everything includes those precious ones…

yes, in my previous blog entry, I’ve mentioned about moments I had in college…I had a relationship with a guy but it ended…we still see each other as we are classmates but we hardly talk…and things worsen when every little thing I did irritates him…I didn’t know what to do, self-blaming that I’m the main cause again…all up in my mind was “why did he do that?” “Why does he have to treat me in such way?”…it was quite unacceptable at that time though…*grrr* however, not now anymore…I start to believe that everything he does, no matter is he trying to avoid me or whatever, will help me in future…he may not think so as he may really want to stop talking to each other, continue to be those hi-bye “stranger”…I don’t care! I’ll be what I am, do what I want to do...perhaps, giving each other some breathing gap may close up the gap between us…pray hard and hope for the best for me… *keeping fingers crossed*

actually, he is the one revealing the real challenging world with different people to me…he is the one who made me now think deeper and mature through the experience we went through…he is the one not to be blame anymore…instead, he is the one I should thank most…without him, without the obstacles I’ve just went through, I think I’m still one of those young child which I’ve mentioned…I would never get such knowledge from a book!

Learning is not only about facts and formulae from books…learning to become a better person is the key to success in life…better person means one with good attitude, manages problems rationally, mature in thinking…so what if I have strings of A’s but with poor attitude? I won’t success in future…

I’ll just accept the past, take it as a lesson, so that I’ll be able to overcome such situation in future…life goes on..!!! I hope those who are reading my blog will agree with my thoughts and have change in your thoughts if you were like me...life will never be as smooth as an eel, there’s lots of obstacles and challenges for us to go through…and these ups and downs make us to become a better person!!! be PATIENT, CALM, RATIONAL…God gave us 2 ears to listen more and only 1 mouth to talk less…we should make use of this God’s gift…see, observe, listen, think before we talk, agree? In the Chinese proverb, it sounded like sickness goes in through your mouth, troubles comes out from your mouth too (病从口入，祸从口出）…therefore, SILENCE IS GOLDEN…

I’ll be the same old me but with new personality… (",)

May God bless all of you out there…

** Cecelia, thanks a lot for helping me to pull through it…love you lots… =)

Cheers…