After all the late nights burning those midnight oils, stress, pressure, frustration, tearing my book into pieces, stacked my bed and floor with books and notes etc, finally I sat for my 12-papers trials last few days. I was a little under pressure as I didn’t really study during normal days, so much so until I nearly threw out whatever I had on Tuesday. I felt just so uncomfortable. So, I told mum bout it, and here comes another new decision!
my "beautiful" chemistry reference book
last minute clean up cz of wei lin wanted to come to my hse...but then he didn't come anyway..
those study nights when 9pm everything is all over my room; 1am everything is cleared from my bed and "dumped" on the 2nd mattress and table...Mum is going to change me to American programme!!!
Mum said that A levels is not for people like me, especially when it is a crashed course (11 months compare to a normal A levels 18 months)! Can you imagine? Haha, well, I admit it though. I’m not all that smart, hardworking or attentive in class. I’m one of those happy-go-lucky ones, taking everything easily. This course is for those really smart ones, hardworking ones, attentive in class ones. Okay, maybe those above average or average, they still made it through but seriously is NOT easy.
Almost every decision I made since 2003 is a wrong decision! I started to become lazy from that year! Laziness lead me to have poor results in PMR, lead me to an average class in f4, became very ill-discipline, only study one week before exam or sometimes don’t even bother to study. However, still manage to go into a better class, changed a little more self-discipline but was too late, didn’t do really that well in SPM too. After that, I made another wrong move to enrol myself in DISTED for one year A Levels programme. Every move was so wrong.
If ever I was not LAZY, I won’t end up being like this, struggling to cope with whatever I had missed in my lower form!
If ever I rather spend a little more time to study, I won’t be taking up this crashed course!
If ever I listen to my parents’ advice to go for American programme from the beginning, I won’t be wasting my first year and also their money!
If, if, if…
Is too late… *sigh with regret*
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My final trial exams in this college… (I’m not retaking anymore) =)
On my first day, my name was not on the list for Chemistry P1 paper! After checking whether if there were enough exam questions for us, we finally got our seats and papers. Then, we went for the next chemistry P4 paper and Maths P3 paper.
Conclusion: Chemistry P1 was fine. Chemistry P4, have no words about it. Maths P3, I’m totally speechless.
Second day, all A2 students were laughing away when we saw the Biology P2! Is not because we A2 students are experience in AS papers, is because there were questions recycled from the last trial exam! Then, we sat for Biology P6 and Maths P7. I did something really stupid which I never did that in exams before- misread the question! Darn it! The paper consists of 4 questions and we have to answer ALL 4 of them, somehow I misread it and I did only ONE! Haha. When I realise I have to finish all 4, it was like 10 minutes before the paper ends. So I did only ONE. I totally screwed that paper up. In Maths P7, I forgot the formulae, I can’t solve.
Conclusion: Biology P2 was fine. Biology P6, I’m so dead. Maths P7, no idea what will it turn out to be. *sigh of disappointment*
The night I felt like throwing whatever I ate. Perhaps I’m just too sick of this exam.
Third day, Chemistry P2, again name was not on the list but we still went in there and wait for them to get our papers out. I finally finish up the whole paper! =) I skipped the next Chemistry P6 as I didn’t even touch those 2 super-duper L-o-n-g chapters. When I went through those past year papers, I was like seeing stars because I don’t understand a thing! Maths P6, again, A2 students were laughing all the way but not those AS newbie.
Conclusion: Chemistry P2 and Maths P6 were fine.
Fourth day, today, Biology P1 was just normal, difficult and easy questions at about the same ratio. I came out after 30 minutes to study for my next Biology P4. It was quite tough maybe is because I didn’t prepare well enough. The night before (last night), my mum came in to talk to me for almost an hour, knowing her daughter, ME, is still having exams the next day but she just didn’t bother. When I told her I couldn’t finish, she asked me to sleep! How great! I didn’t sleep and went on with that making of human insulin from bacteria. Haha, I sow what I reap! It really came out with the score of 10 marks.
Conclusion: Biology P1 and P4 still manageable but can’t imagine my scores for it.
Fifth day which is tomorrow, I left with only one paper which is my Maths P1. *sigh of relieve* =)
Anyway, even though I know I’m changing course by next year, I’ve already paid my exam fees. I’ve put in so much effort in this exam and I won’t just give up like this! There’s still at least a month plus for me to prepare and brush up myself for my final exams. BUT! I’m going to stop studying for this few days and replace all the sleeping time I lost days and weeks ago. I’m going to pamper myself with some nice food and some window shopping before I start studying again too. *wink*
The “P”s I’m talking about…
Biology and Chemistry – P1(AS), objective questions. P2(AS) & P4(A2), structured questions. P6(A2), option paper.
Maths – P1(AS) & P3(A2), pure maths, P6(AS) & P7(A2), statistics.
2 comments:
your room "_"
speechless haha....
how i wish i also have a room to myself, then i can make it as messy as yours haha..
u crazy fellow...is easy to mess the whole place up but when u want to clear the mess u'll b crying d lor...n when u hv 2 final exams with 2 trials will b like 4 times of exam n u r going to mess the whole room 4 times...u can imagine...the stacks of papers, notes, files, books etc...
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